Who I Am


Blogging is a wonderful and mysterious thing.  I have stumbled upon a great blog where they offer up writing prompts every week (found it through my fabulous bloggy friend, Bernie over at One Mixed Bag).  I am just getting this one in under the wire of the cut off but if you are interested in reading more head on over to The Lightning and The Lightning -Bug to join in the fun.   This week’s prompt that I am just barely getting to is as follows:

We want you to share a post that essentially defines who you are. It can be an introduction post, a post about your blog, a particular piece of writing that defines you.

 

I had so much fun with their challenge a couple weeks ago to write a letter to my 16 year old self that I wrote Dear Miss Insecurity.  Today’s is a little different but I will give it a go!

In the blogging world I have found that I pretty much tell all.  I am an open book in real life, wear my heart on my sleeve, and am pretty much have lived my life that way.  I am who I am.  I make no excuses anymore though there was a time when I did.  Ask my mom about my “I’m only human” phase somewhere around those difficult teenage years.

If you read my post Dear Miss Insecurity you will see that I really was  insecure in my younger years.  As I have grown and hopefully matured (though many would disagree with that!) I have gained a sense of who I am and a peace with the fact that God made me just the way He made me for a reason.  Now don’t go thinking I am a freak.  I don’t think that I am!  🙂   In fact I think I am quite normal!  I grew up in a loving family with 2 parents and 3 other siblings–we had a good life and shared a lot of love and laughter along the way.  There was always creativity and encouragement surrounding us and it was a good life.  I think we were the “normal” family.   But as I grow older (where’s my cane?) I realize that what we had was not normal.  What we had was special.  And I wanted to give that to my own family.

The hub and I were blessed with 2 boys.  Now I don’t know what you folks out there with girls do but I absolutely LOVED having boys.   Our two were not wild or rambunctious—they were “normal”.  Whatever that is.  Mr. Beth Ann (as Bernie calls him) and I raised them to be independent thinkers and secure in who they were.  I am happy to say that it worked. Somewhere along the line as the song in The Sound of Music says

So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

Our boys are fabulous.  I was so blessed to be able to be a stay at home mom and it was the best role that I ever had.  I know that not everyone wants that as their primary role but I did and I was, as I say, blessed to be in a position where I could do that.  I loved being the room mom and the chauffer.  I loved being the house that their friends came to . I did not always love hearing the microwave door slamming and the timer pinging at all hours of the night and wee morning when they were “friend central” but hopefully I wasn’t too grumpy about that.

I had a few jobs over the years, mainly after the boys were in jr high and high school, which included helping run a family business (HUGE learning curve there, folks), being a church secretary and eventually moving into a church director role of adult ministry and outreach.  It was a great gig.  Now my role has changed somewhat and aside from being Mr. Beth Ann’s personal assistant I am the traveling help.  Whether it is to help the boys get settled in their new places or helping out with my father in law it is what is in the cards for me right now.  Pretty awesome gig.  Again, I am blessed.

I started writing this blog mainly to keep in touch with the family back in the US when Mr. Beth Ann took a job in Australia in 2008.   Who would have dreamed it would become my lifeline?   I kind of get the jitters and shakes when I don’t have the chance to blog.  I am not saying that I write the best or have the most profound things to say but it has become a part of me.  It has opened up a whole new world for me.  I have not really engaged in our community where we now reside but instead have my bloggy friends.  We joke about how I don’t have many friends there to call and go for coffee with or shopping or whatever but I have all of my “virtual” friends who are more real to me than anything else right now.

The blog has kind of taken on a life of its own.  I started doing Comments for a Cause a couple months ago and that has opened up a whole new world for me.  I am able to give to some causes through YOU my readers and it is an incredible thing.  I love it.  Am I obsessed about comments now?  Kind of.  But no insecurity here–just happiness that people have found me and want to comment.  Woohoo!

Wow–this went on longer than I thought it would and I could still say a lot more but let’s save that for another day.  Thanks for joining me on the ride.  It has been a fun one and I think it will continue that way.   

Comments

  1. Wow thanks for sharing! It sounds like your boys were lucky to have you as their Mom.

  2. Great post! I think I’m still in the process of becoming more comfortable with myself, and I think it’s such a great thing that you have moved past that process and truly become happy with who you are. And you should be happy with it, because you’re fabulous. You sound like an amazing mom who is living a great adventure!

    Thank you so much for linking up with The Lightning and the Lightning Bug; I’m glad you found us through Bernie so that we could find you. )

    • Katie—I have a feeling I am “much” older than you so give yourself time to find yourself!!! I have lived life pretty much to the fullest all my life—-I have few regrets and try to practice the art of kindness and compassion. It makes a difference. It really does.
      I am so glad I found you guys! I love the prompts and love the “community”. Thanks for coming over and being my bloggy friend!!! 🙂

  3. I really enjoyed your blog, thank you for sharing.
    Most of all… I appreciate your supportive comments to my friend Rebekah on her guest post yesterday. Thank you for sharing on L&LB.

    • Well thank YOU for stopping by!!! I am so glad to meet you and was really happy to read Rebekah’s post yesterday. I think sometimes we just don’t have a clue what burdens others are shouldering. I am a firm believer in paying it forward and just generally being nice—it gets me a lot farther than the alternative!!! Stop back anytime!

  4. pattisj says:

    Thanks for sharing your story with us, Beth Ann. I didn’t know about Australia until just now. I think I shall have to do some snooping among your archives!

    • I have a lot of blogs from our Australia days—from March 2008-March 2009 a bunch of them boast pictures from there. I was using Blogger then so when we moved to WordPress the formatting got a little weird but you still get the basic idea!

  5. Interesting reading about your life journey here. I think have two boys would be a lot of fun! “Sound of Music” is one of my favorite musicals!

  6. Very nice to meet you…and nice way of introducing yourself. Glad you linked up!

  7. Beth Ann, this was a beautiful post…. your boys and mr beth ann are so lucky to have you…when I started to blog, I never imagined how much I would be able to connect with others. It is amazing how much love and support our “bloggy friends” offer…

    • It is such a neat little community of friends, isn’t it?? ?I never dreamed that it would be what it is for me!!! And I get to meet such great friends!!! Love it!!! Thanks for the sweet comment!!!

  8. Loved this, Beth Ann!

    Finally got some time to follow-up on my reading and comments after a hectic week-end!

    Raising girls can be….interesting (difficult)…and it doesn’t improve even when they’re in their 30’s. I have two daughters and a son; he’s the youngest, each three years apart in age.

    They still fight like cats & dogs….the two girls are the worst at times…sigh!

    Sounds like you have done a wonderful job with your sons…good for you and…how lucky are they!

    • Really?? ?They still fight???? Wow!!! I know we have had it very easy, believe me!!! Thanks for coming on by and leaving a comment!! Always love to hear other people’s take on things!!! Have a great day!

  9. I love this post Beth Ann. Thank you for sharing this story of yours. I’m so glad our path cross somehow. I enjoy reading your blog and learn from it and from your comment as well. Thank you for including us – your blogging buddy – in your act of goodwill. I feel honor and happy I can somehow contribute to it. Hey guess what, I used to live in Australia! Ha! Small world huh.. 🙂

    • Sendie-Lou—Thank you so much!!! You know I love to read your blog and thing you are pretty neat!!! And I forgot you used to live in Australia, too!!! We were there a short time but had a grand adventure!!!

  10. Helen Brown says:

    Yes Beth, you have grown up a lot since you were a young girl. I am happy how you have turned out. I have been blessed with 4 great kids.

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